When my parents married in Peru, they were very poor. Slowly, they moved up to middle class, but being poor had set their money beliefs. They had 4 children, including me. I am one of the older three, I was the only one who saved money whenever I got it, because I had taken on my parent’s money beliefs.
Then, ironically, I ended up spending nearly all of that money on our wedding, but only to realize that it allowed me to receive more. A lot more. My money was now “our” money, tripled.
By the time I was getting ready to marry my husband in 2007, I had saved $10,000. My husband had no money, and when he would talk about spending any of my nest egg, my whole body would shut down. I would freak out! I knew something was wrong with the way I was reacting, but I couldn’t help it. The thought of losing that emergency fund terrified me.
However, about a year later, we bought our first condo, and then the market crashed in 2008. We hung in financially, but in 2009, for the first time, we had a negative bank account balance, and I freaked out again. My father’s beliefs came up strong. “People in debt are stupid, and don’t know how to manage their money.” Basically, he thought that people in debt were unworthy.I began to watch our spending very closely, and we recovered, but sometime in 2010, I realized my husband was unhappy. In fact, we both were. We were making money, but not enjoying life. My husband is a chef, so eating out is very important to him, but I wasn’t even allowing that. I eased up on the budget a bit and we’d get a little better, and then stuck, and then better, and stuck again.
At the time, I was working a 5-figure job that was stressing me out. I was paid well, but when I received my first paycheck, I divided it by the actual hours I worked, and I was making less than my lowest paid employee. I realized that I had taught my employer that it was okay to abuse me, and my money beliefs were partly to blame.I credit all of that for leading me to the journey I’m on now. I knew I wanted more in life, but didn’t know what. When I began giving angel readings, I was doing them for free, and when the first person asked what I charge, I had nearly the same reaction I’d had when my husband would talk about spending my money. I had to excuse myself to the restroom, I cried and prayed. After all, the work I was doing was deeply spiritual. How could I charge for that?
I connected to the angels, and was told it was okay to charge. I started small, asking for just $1/minute, but even after that, I would get nervous every time I received the guidance to raise my prices.I would think to myself that my mission was never going to happen, and that people didn’t have the money to pay for my services. That was a big one, thanks to my father. He would say that people didn’t have money all the time, and I believed it until I started to realize people would say they have no money, and then spend money on other things. They had the money, but the truth was they didn’t want to make my services a priority. That was not something they needed to shift in them, but also something I needed to shift in me. I started telling myself that people did have the money, and now, I believe it.
This is how I can help you release your money blocks too. I’ve been there. I’ve done the work on myself.